The memory of autumn

双腿瘫痪后，我的脾气变的暴怒无常。望着望着天上北归的雁阵，我会突然把面前的玻璃砸碎；听着听着李谷一甜美的歌声，我会猛地把手边的东西摔向四周的墙壁。这时，母亲就悄悄地躲出去，在我看不见的地方偷偷地听着我是动静。当一切恢复沉寂，她又悄悄地进来，眼边红红的，看着我。“听说北海的花儿都开了，我推着你去走走。”她总是这么说。母亲喜欢花，可自从我的腿瘫痪后，她侍弄的那些花都死了。“不，我不去！”我狠命的捶打这两条可恨的腿，喊着：“我可活什么劲！”母亲扑过来抓住我的手，忍住哭声说：“咱娘俩在一块，好好儿活，好好儿活……”

可我却一直都不知道，她的病已经到了那步田地。后来妹妹告诉我，她经常肝疼得整宿翻来覆去的睡不了觉。

那天我又独自坐在屋里，看着窗外的树叶“刷刷啦啦”的飘落。母亲进来了，挡在窗前：“北海的菊花开了，我推你去看看吧。”她憔悴的脸上显出央求般的神色。“什么时候？”“你要是愿意，就明天？”她说。我的回答已经让她喜出望外了，。“好吧，就明天。”我说。她高兴的一会儿坐下，一会站起来：“那就赶紧准备准备。”“唉呀，烦不烦？几步路，有什么好准备的！”她也笑了，坐在我的身边，絮絮叨叨地说着：“看完菊花，咱们去‘仿膳’，你小时候最爱吃那儿的豌豆黄儿。还记得那回我带你去北海吗？你偏说那杨树花是毛毛虫，跑着，一脚踩扁一个……”她忽然不说了。对于“跑”和“踩”一类的字眼她比我还敏感。她又悄悄地出去了。

她出去了，就再也没回来。

邻居把她抬上车时，她还在大口大口地吐着鲜血。我没想到她已经病成那样。看着三轮车远去，也决没有想到那竟是永远的诀别。

邻居的小伙子背着我去看她的时候，她正艰难地呼吸着，像她艰难的一生。别人告诉我，她昏迷前的最后一句话是：“我那个有病的儿子和我那个还未成年的女儿……”

又是秋天，妹妹推着我去北海看了菊花。黄色的花淡雅，白色的花高洁，紫红色的花热烈而深沉，活泼洒洒，秋风中正开得烂漫。我懂得母亲没有说完的话，妹妹也懂。我俩在一块儿，好好儿活……

After my legs were paralyzed, my temper became violent. Watching the geese fly north, I would smash the glass in front of me. Listening to Li Guyi's sweet voice, I would fling everything at the walls around me. At this time, the mother would quietly hide out, I can not see the place secretly listening to me is the movement. When all was quiet again, she came in quietly, her eyes red, looking at me. "I heard that all the flowers in the North Sea are blooming, and I will push you to go for a walk," she always said. My mother loved flowers, but since my legs were paralyzed, all the flowers she nd died. "No, I won't!" I pounded the hateful legs and shouted, "I can't Live!" My mother rushed over and took my hand, i kept from crying and said, "We are together, Live Well, live well..." but I never knew that her illness had reached that stage. Later, my sister told me that she often had liver pain and couldn't sleep all night. That day I sat alone in the house again and watched the leaves falling from the window. Mother came in, block in the window: "the North Sea Chrysanthemum opened, I push you to see it." Her haggard face showed a pleading look. "When?""tomorrow, if you like?" She said. She was overjoyed at my answer. "All Right, tomorrow," I said. She sat down happily for a while, then stood up and said, "Let's Get Ready.""Oh, aren't you bored? A few steps away, what's there to get ready for!" She laughed, too, sit By my side, garrulous ground says: "see Chrysanthemum, let's Go ‘Fangshan', you like to eat pea yellow there most when you are a child.". Remember that time I took you to the North Sea? Yoy that the Poplar Flower is caterpillar, running, a foot sqed one..." she suddenly stopped.". She's more sensitive than I am to words like "run" and "step on". She slipped out again. She went out and never came back. She was spitting blood as neighbors carried her to her car. I didn't expect her to be so ill. Watching the tricycle go away, I never thought that it would be a farewell forever. When the neighbor's young man went to see her behind my back, she was breathing hard, like her hard life. I was told that her last words before she passed out were: "my sick son and my teenage daughter..." in the fall, my sister pushed me to the North Sea to see chrysanthem Yellow flowers elegant, white flowers Gao Jie, fuchsia flowers warm and deep, lively sprinkling, the autumn wind is open in full bloom. I knew what my mother had left to say, and so did my sister. We're gonna be together, having a good time.. 标题: 秋天的怀念
作者: 史铁生
字数: 832
简介: 双腿瘫痪后，我的脾气变的暴怒无常。望着望着天上北归的雁阵，我会突然把面前的玻璃砸碎；听着听着李谷一甜美的歌声，我会猛地把手边的东西摔向四周的